I remember..
Last year in 9th grade in Va, English class. I sat right in front of the window and It was winter and all I listened to for two weeks straight was Alkaline trio- so I had them stuck in my head, and I would watch the snow fall the entire period. I never did anything at all I just sat there watching it, I wanted to be outside in it so badly.
Everything seems to get better in winter. I like how winter is either gray or white.
I like how it was snowing in the school parking lot and Will and I danced in it. I like how I would sit on my roof and the snow would eventually cover me.
I like the way the snow looked from laying down at the park late at night.
I like my favorite day of winter last year. Everything was in the middle of my room because I had just painted a few days before and never changed it back. My parents were in New Jersey and Brian was at work. The only thing on my bed was a sheet, the windows were open and outside there was snow everywhere. My room was so cold you could see your breath.
I had come clean on repeat all night and all morning and I had just woke up, I fell asleep the night before wearing the same clothes. And I just layed there listening to the song and watching my breath, I was so numb from the cold..and at that moment I felt so infinite.
An hour later Randy and Andrew showed up and we left to get milkshakes. Everyone starred at me like woah but it didnt matter, my hair was unbrushed and in my face, my eyeliner was runny and I had my favoritest shirt on and i still felt great. And I remember sitting there with them looking outside everything was grary and white I loved it.
I loved everything about that day I loved every second of it. Even just laying there in the back of Randys car, and getting chased with andrew by scary snow ball throwing kids. I loved it.
I don't know why but that day was so perfect.
I want another perfect day
-I miss winter-
<3
just forget me, it's that simple
make it
hurt
miss me?
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